Life Update

I have felt very blessed the past few weeks. I feel like the black cloud that was hanging over me and hanging in my heart has finally moved on. I feel at peace. I feel happy. I am no longer upset when others are happy, I don't begrudge them anymore. I don't know what put me in my hell pit, but I am glad I finally climbed out. (well, that's not true...I know a LITTLE of what put me there...very personal things...) anyway, I feel like me again. It's a strange feeling. As I was listening to conference this weekend, I was overwhelmed with just how "ok" I feel. For so long I was just angry and mad at everything, and I was struggling to not be annoyed with everyone. It was just some feeling I let myself start feeling, then couldn't stop. I prayed hard for months to let the darkness go, and one day, after my surgery, it just left. I felt like I had had a weight lifted off my shoulder.

I appreciated the lessons taught during conference. I loved the talk that said "Just stop" and "don't judge me just because my sins look different then yours"

I have too much in my brain right now to post a coherent post, but just wanted to jot down a few notes from my weekend. It was a great weekend. Ashton and I planted some peas, onions, lettuce and strawberries in the garden, then enjoyed just sitting together and listening to conference. I worked on my school project of making paper flowers and Aspen worked on making jewelry. Ashton enjoyed resting. I've enjoyed all the posts on conference experiences from my friends on their blogs! It's been so nice to read other peoples experiences.