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Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to my wonderful family and Friends! I love you ALL! Missed those I didn't get to see or talk to today.

We had a great breakfast made by Shalee and Jill with the assistance of Shiloh and Kami. Shenla and Donny probably helped too, but I wouldn't know, because Ashton and I were just relaxing (trying to keep our eyes open) since we've been up since 5:30 this morning for the Call family get together. (Yes, they REALLY do start up that early every Christmas!) But it was a wonderful breakfast. We also got some pics, I will post them here later. It was a fun little Christmas. Sheldon and Angie stopped by, then Amber and Sheridan. It was so nice to visit with everyone. We spent the rest of the day at Ashton's mom's like we usually do playing games and just hanging out and having fun. I miss Dad on Holidays, but I sure have a great mom.

My thinker is going to bed, so I can't think of much to post about. I will however leave you all with a funny Christmas story for those that didn't get to hear it.

Ashton and I agreed not to get anything for each other for Christmas this year since money was short, so we just got ourselves and Aspen a family gift. Then, left under the tree was a gift from Aspen to me...and I got a grump on my face and turned to Ashton and said with a sneer...well...it's too bad Aspen didn't get DADDY anything, since we PROMISED not to! (With a GRRRR in my voice) and Ashton says..."We'll she MIGHT have gotten her dad something...and it MIGHT be in the furnace room closet..." so I jumped up and ran into the furnace room, and sitting in there was a rifle case (abt $17 value) with a bow sitting on top of it and a note that said "To Daddy, Love Aspen"

I laughed so hard. Looks like he covered his bases...It was a great Christmas joke.

Love you all!!! Merry CHRISTmas!

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I know I mentioned password protecting my site, truth is I'm going to, I'm just too lazy to do it right now.

Ouch is all I can say. I've been in and out of tears all day today with some terrible bubbles in my chest, shoulders and back. OUCH. Surgery is NOT my friend. But I'm home now. bored as can be since I can't do anything but lay around or sit around, whichever hurts the least at the moment.

Surgery went well. They found large amounts of scar tissue at the opening of my Uterus. They made a hole in my belly button and one in my lower stomach area, down on top of my c-section scar, and they cut out the scar tissue, and numbed the nerves and ligaments behind my uterus. Dr. said the scar tissue is the reason I've been unable to get pregnant. I should feel better after this. It will take about 3 weeks to recover. I can't drive or lift anything above 20 pds for 3 weeks. Aspen is with my mom for the weekend so that I can get the rest I need, and since I can't lift her up anyway, she will have more fun with grandma then with me. Anyway, I will be glad to get feeling better and get back to life. I'm rethinking having another baby anyway though...since I have to have c-sections...and I can't stand these air bubbles. I forgot how much they hurt...I don't know if I want to go through it again.

Happy Holiday's everyone. Enjoy the peace of the season, and God bless!

Christmas is Coming...

TOOO fast! Ugh. I LOVE LOVE LOVE Christmas. And I started it at the beginning of November this year in hopes that it would last longer for me...but it seems to have come just as fast regardless of my early start. I'm sad it's going to come and be gone. I love this season, and the spirit it brings with it. I don't even have one gift for Christmas bought yet. I was going to have it all done by now, but lack of money and time ruined that for me. Sooo...instead I go in for surgery tomorrow...have a couple days to recover...hoping all goes well, then I will have to do my shopping right before Christmas. Which I hate. I like having time to look around and enjoy it all. Ah well...as I say every year "next year"...ha.

So I go in for surgery tomorrow. If all goes well, I will check out the same day. If it doesn't, then I will be in overnight. Or if they have to take my appendix out I will be in overnight too. They said they may not have to. We will see. They can't do the surgery until 5pm, and I'm not supposed to eat or drink anything all day...ugh.

I have a photography appointment tonight with an older couple that want some Christmas pictures for their kids. That should be fun. I'm enjoying photography sooo much. Now I'm thinking I want to go bigger in it then I planned. I thought I'd just want to do family and wedding pics...but now I'm thinking more along the lines of a proffession. I think I'd like to do Journal or magazine/fashion photography. Of course I'm just dreaming...and I'd have TONS of school to have to go to in order to be able to be good enough to do it...but a girl can always dream. If all this photography stuff wasn't so expensive I'd have a better chance at it. I can't afford everything I want or need that would help me be better. Maybe with time I'll get it all. Anyway...here's a toast to my dreams.

And so the fun begins...

I went to the Dr. yesterday...I think in the past 6 mths I've been to a Dr. so often I'm feeling like I'm living there.

Anyway, I think they FINALLY found the "Somthing" I've been complaining about for so long, and the past 6 doctors told me it was nothing. Big applause for Dr. Young for being so Thourough. She didn't stop till she was satisfied that she'd checked everything possible. The "something"? My right ovary appears to have attached itself to my uterus. Thus the reason I haven't been able to get pregnant either. So next Friday I am set for Surgery. She is going to take a look and see what's going on, and if she needs to, do some reconstructive surgery. Also, she is removing my apendix at that time, because she thinks that it is giving me troubles, even though all the other dr.'s said it's not. Oh I love Dr.'s. Anyway, I'm glad to know someone is finally taking my pain seriously. It will be nice to get some things fixed. Wish me luck. She said that not always, but sometimes during this kind of surgery, the female parts can't be saved...so pray that I get to keep my female parts in tact so I can have more babies someday.

She also said I was probably lucky to get pregnant with Aspen, because I don't have the right set up in my insides to have babies...aparently my tubes peak too high or something. Well, I'm thankful for Aspen at least!

Grandma

As many of you have seen me write about before, my Grandma Peck is 103. She has been living alone for quite a while and taking care of herself. She has seriously been one of my very favorite family members for as long as I've known how to love someone. She has hands that are so fun to hold, and a kissable cheek. She is amazing. She has been kniting, and quilting blankets for the humanitarian efforts, cooking, reading, writing. She is just simply amazing. I got a call from my brother Shalee today, letting me know she had a stroke. She has had little strokes in the past, but has been fine, and stayed living alone. But I guess this one was a big one. She had to be moved in with her daughter Twila Jean now. For anyone who knows my grandma...you know that her stroke had to have been really bad if she let them move her out of her home. She loves taking care of herself, and not having others fuss about her. I feel sad for her. I hope she is not in pain. I know she is ready to go home...it's us here that are selfish and like keeping her around. I went and visited with her just a week and a half ago. I'm glad I went. She didn't want us to leave, and she was so sweet to model for me so that I could take pictures of her for my portfolio. She didn't want me to take her pictures while she was in her housecoat, so she went and changed into a dress. She is so funny. I love her so much, adn I hope she will be ok. It's hard to let her go, or watch her "going" but I know she has lived a good long life, and is ready. God Bless her. It's so important to spend time with those we love...we never know when it will be the last time. Like she said when I saw her last..."I never know if this will be the last time I see you."

Password Protecting and pics

Enjoy all the pics...these are some that I have taken for my model projects...I only posted those who have told me it's ok to post.

Guess it's my turn. I'm passwording my site sometime next week (that is if I figure how to do it...), so be sure I have your email address if you want to be able to see the site. Not that much happens here to keep up with, but if you happen to be interested...

Sorry to everyone I am sooo behind on getting pictures to. It's final week, and I can't keep things straight in my head, so there is no way I can on my computer. It's been crazier than I planned. I spent from 5 until 1 this morning in the dark room and only accomplished 3 of my 15 prints. Ugh!!! Then I went back this morning, and ONE WAS MESSED UP!!!! Someone had carelessly set another wet picture on top of my print that was still wet, so it stuck to it and ripped. OH WAS I MAD!! It took me 3 hours to make that print! GRRR...Anyway, I guess that's just how it goes. Anyway, I will take a nap, then go back at midnight and work as long as I can stay awake. That's the only time I will probably be able to get a projector to work with. It's so crowded right now with 3 diff classes trying to finish their finals. I'm a little frusterated with my project and still have some pics I need to take, I didn't get enough volunteers. (Thanks to those who did model for me! you rock!) but I think I will be able to finish the rest tonight, I'll just snatch pictures of anyone who comes close to me...so stay clear if you don't want your pic taken.

We did take a little time and decorate for ChRiStMaS. It's kinda a sad little tree, but that's all we could afford right now - we ran out of money to get more lights for the top of the tree..ha ha. We had a good thanksgiving. I missed my dad as I usually do when my family gets together, but it was nice, because my family hasn't had so many of us get together since my dad's funeral. We started a little family tradition of singing around the tree every night with Aspen, one Christmas song. It's really helped to bring the Christmas spirit into our home....the season is going too quickly. I really wanted it to go slower...so I could enjoy it more.

Ok, that's enough from me for now I'm sure...