One of those days...er years....er lives

Ever have the feeling life is passing you by, and no matter how hard you try to hold on, it doesn't stop long enough for you to even catch your breath, or remember what your dreams use to be, or leave you time to spend with the one's you love, your friends, family, or give you time to remember what it was like when your dad was alive, and the memories you had? Or how about when you look at your child and realize that you don't even remember what you were doing with them at this time last year...or realize how much they REALLY have grown...their hair is longer, they are a lot smarter and faster, and understanding.

I usually feel like this on an everyday basis, and though I count my blessings daily, I still at the end of the day feel like something is missing. Like something passed me by. I feel lost most times, and wonder how I got to where I am, and why I haven't been able to accomplish all I once wanted to do and be and see, and places I wanted to go. As a child I thought everything was SOOOO slow...I wanted so much to GROW UP! I felt held back as a child, and now I'd give anything to go back and enjoy more, hold on to more memories, live life a little fuller, feel less sorry for myself and feel more love and acceptance for others. So many times I feel like I could have done more or been more with my life. At the end of the day I wonder where I am. What I've accomplished. Where I'm going. It all feels like a blur.

I have so many things I wish I could do, or learn, or have the time for. Dreams that I feel like I never even get to take out of the box...things I wonder if I will ever have time to do or learn. Well, I know I sound like I'm being depressing. I'm not. I'm not looking for sympathy or anything like that. I'm thinking realistically.

Anyway, after all my long ramblings about how I feel about life...here is my "Bucket List"

1. Go on a Cruise (I love to travel, and would spend a month or more in Europe if I could afford it)
2. Make it to Ireland someday to see where my relatives the Gagans' grew up.
3. Have at least one more child...hopefully we will get blessed with one
4. Be able to afford a really nice Camera and a Studio
5. Own a Toyota Tacoma 4 door
6. Spend time just sitting around with my loved ones ALL together for a day (Very hard thing to get us ALL together...)
7. Go on a trip with my best friends...I am the type that loves my close friends as much as I love my family
8. Write a book.
9. Learn to be a photoshop pro - tap into my creativity somehow
10. Skydiving, scuba diving, swim with dolphins, and parasail
11. Not HAVE to work anymore
12. Have my photography published in a magazine someday
13. Learn to play the piano
14. learn to build furniture (I LOVE furniture - good thing I married someone so fantastic and handy at building things!)
15. Be completely out of dept and be able to afford what we'd like...and to be able to afford to give to charities...maybe work in an orphanage somewhere someday.
16. live in a world of peace - where everyone is kind and loves one another equally, and does for each other equally.

I have many more dreams...but those are a few that really stand out in my mind. And that's my rambling for the day.

Always love a good movie

Tonight I went to "My Sisters Keeper" it was such a well done movie. So touching and SOOO sad. I rarely cry in movies...at least not more then shed a tear, but this show def. hits ya hard. They really did a great job making it. I'm glad they still make SOME good movies. Seems like most have been crap lately.

Today I watched my brother Shad's 3 kids (they are up staying with my mom for the month) and I watched my sister Shenla's 2 kids. Plus of course I had Aspen, so 6 kids from 8am to 4pm today. I took them to the movie "UP" which was really a cute movie for kids. And then we came home and played Disney Trivia. Pretty fun I guess. They faught a lot like kids do...which drove me crazy, but I love all of them anyway. My mom went with my Grandma to the Governor's Luncheon (My grandma gets invited every year) so I was able to see my grandma for a moment today when they came to pick up my mom. It is always great to see her. I love her sooo much. She still looks so strong and healthy. She's almost 104. Amazing.

Then tonight I snuggled Aspen and sang her songs in bed, because she wanted me to, but then she said "I'm tired, I'm done with singing." My little girl is growing up so fast and it breaks my heart. She use to want me to stay all night. Now she knows when she is tired and ready to sleep. I love the girl so much! She is my everything. I can't believe they grow so quickly.

Well, nothin much else to talk about. Keeping busy as always.

A favor for a friend

Here is a message from a friend of mine. If you can stop by and help her out, that would be AWESOME! She needs to get it all sold so she can pay off her credit card. Thanks in advance if you can come by and help her out (bring friends if you want to!). I will be there too. She is NOT looking to gain customers or anything, she just wants to get her inventory gone.

Thanks!
Shanda

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Ha ha!

So here I am reading other people's blogs and laughing because there are seriously some funny people out there, and Aspen all the sudden comes up to me, taps me, and says "mom, stop laughing and get me some grapes" ha ha. guess she didn't find my blog reading as funny as I did. Love the lil stink.

Hello...I'm slowly getting back

Hi All!

Well, I thought that when Summer rolled around I'd have more time to do the things I want to be doing...but I've still been soooo busy trying to catch up with life, that it feels like summer is just passing me by...a very depressing thought. But here is a little of what I have accomplished, and come next week, I think I actually will start my SUMMER, and start having more time to enjoy it. Too bad I only have 2 mths left to enjoy, which I'm sure will go by in the blink of an eye.

I prepped my work load for the next two months! Wahoo!

We sold out small pickup truck - now we just have to sell our Caddi and I can upgrade to a larger truck. The one I want. The LOVELY TOYOTA TACOMA 4 DOOR!! Love it!

Ashton and I started a new business that I'm totally pumped about. It took us a long time to decide to do it, and a lot of praying, but it feels right. yay.

I have been getting more requests to do photo sessions. So fun!

We cleaned out my grandmas house because she moved in with my aunt, and we received one of her old sowing desks for helping clean out, and I LOVE it. We painted it black and patched it up and it sits perfectly in our living room. I will take a picture and post later. (sorry for the lack of pictures lately. They have been taking so long to upload that I haven't been doing them)

I've kept my house clean for 2 weeks in a row now! Wahoo!! LOVE being home and being able to take care of those things.

My hair is finally growing out again!!!!

We are slowly getting our debt paid off (Hurry tax return...get into our bank account!!)

Aspen is funny and we are having a good time playing together.

Ashton leaves for 2 weeks IN 2 weeks for army training, and I will be off to yellowstone for a week during that time with his family.

At the end of august we are taking a road trip to the Red Woods. Totally pumped about that!

Anyway, that's about it. AND I need girl time! If anyone is out there and wants to be my friend and have mommy play dates, TEXT ME!! I'm totally up for walks or days at the park (As soon as I get a vehicle to drive that is...) I stink at being a great friend, but I want to work on this...and I WANT FRIENDS!! Ha ha. Really. I am trying to work on what I call my "socially retarded" problem. So anyone that wants to help me out...let's play! Hope everyone is having a great summer!

And here's a few pics of my newest baby session I did. He is my little nephew and SOOOO adorable!

that's my girl!

Yesterday night we went grocery shopping, and we took the jeep...that now has the top off. And when we got there and she was climbing out of the back end of the jeep, she stands up and says "wow, this jeep is COOL!" it was sooo cute! She is so fun most days. And so funny! Her dad was of course proud of her...because after all...he is trying really hard to make her into a tom boy...

Family Time

Yesterday I had different plans in mind (and lots I was supposed to do), but Ashton took the day off early to come to a business meeting with me, and then we went to lunch together, and then I guess I must have looked so good he didn't want to leave me (Ha ha!) My brother's Shaun, Shalee and Shiloh were over at my moms working on her backyard so Ashton and I decided to stay and help. We took a big trailer to the dump and got some mulch, and we all worked hard making her backyard look fantastic! My sister ShaMayne had come up earlier in the week and planted her garden.

It took all day to get it all done, but it was fun to spend the time together, and to spend the time with some of my brothers.

And for the record, Ashton was super dooper sweet to me yesterday, and I had fun watching my hottie husband working. He's a fantastic hard worker, and he is super smart. I love you babe! Thanks for sticking around yesterday and helping out. You are the bestest!

And of course Aspen was a HUGE help. She helped carry plants to the backyard, and had a blast getting dirty. I wish I'd had my camera to take pictures, but I didn't....I will have to go take a picture of the backyard though so you can all see it. My dad would have loved it. Shaun brought some large rocks out to make a rock garden, and my dad LOVED rocks. It will be nice for my mom to go out and enjoy her backyard. AND the strawberries and raspberries I planted there 2 years ago are finally starting to come through! Yahoo!