This and That & my ramblings like usual

Does anyone read blogs anymore? I notice - not just on mine, mine is ALWAYS sparse on comments, I rarely have any, but that's no one's fault but my own, I tend to be bland and boring for the most part. But even on my friends lately I've noticed there aren't a TON of comments, 2 or 3 here and there...so I was just wondering if anyone blogs anymore. Aw well, still have to do my journaling. lol.

Finally starting to feel a little better from the surgery. Tired. Really tired, but that's ok. If I can have another baby it will all be worth it. In relief society today, a lady was talking about children and how they always keep us on our toes, how if you have multiple children it's like they decide who is going to be the challenging child that week and who it will be next week, so that parents are always kept on their toes and having to deal with one crisis or another. I found it funny. Then she asked me how many children I had, I told her I had one that was almost 6. And as experience has taught me here, the same face of question and pity that shows up on everyone's face showed up on her's sure enough (though unlike others I don't get upset about it - I tend to laugh about it - for some reason it always makes me wrinkle my nose a little and smile inside. It's not that it's not a hard thing to not be able to have children. I didn't know this would be one of my trials, I do have a hard time with it, but for some reason I was blessed to find it funny that I always get the same reaction from people rather then feel annoyed) so after telling her what I tell everyone (that she's all I've been blessed with-so I'll take it) she says "well, I was never able to have many children either. I just tell people I was working on quality, not quantity." I laughed right out loud and decided to take that on as my mantra. I make quality children, not quantity. Bahaha! I loved it.

This is why I go to church I suppose. I always sit by the grandmas, they are my favorite, have been since childhood. I have a lot of grandma friends in my ward, but no one my age, I haven't even tried yet...I never feel comfortable with people my age. I'd rather talk about world war 2, the rat pack, black and white photos, poems, old songs, I feel like a 50-60 year old trapped in a 28 year old body. I'm an old soul. :0)

Aspen and I got some quality time while I have been down for surgery. I got a little taste for what it would be like to be a stay at home mom - minus all the T.V. we watched of course :0). It was nice to have time to snuggle her, read with her, listen to her. She has so much in that brain of hers, she is just sooo smart. She is reading so well now, she can read big words that just surprise me coming out of her mouth. Her love language is most definetely touch, many times throughout the day she will say to me "it's nuggle time!" which is the way she says snuggle. I don't correct her, because I think it is so cute. She can say it the right way, but it's one of the few words she stills uses "baby language" for, and I'm sad enough she has grown so fast. I find baby language cute. As much as other people think it's wrong to let them talk that way. It only lasts such a short while. That was a weird tangent to go off on. yes, that is my random brain at work.

I'm starting to freak out about this semester a little bit. I'm wondering how I'm going to get through all my classes and work 2 jobs at the same time, and be a mommy, but I'm trying to hold onto the peace I felt a few weeks ago, I know God will watch out for me and let it work out.

Here's where I am taking votes by the way...Do I go back to blonde or stay a brunette? I need to update my hair since I'm feeling rather "amish" these days with my straight boring hair I keep pulled back most the time. Its been a while since I got it done and my roots are looking great. Time for a refresher. So if you have an opinion let me know. :0)

Did I ever mention we have two dogs right now? Yeah. Two dogs. Now. That's a lot of potty training. We have a schnauzer and a chocolate lab. Don't ask me why or how we ended up with two puppies...I can't quite say...I just know I was still under anesthesia when the 2nd puppy showed up...

And there you have my this and that for this week

And now some photos from my phone...since that's about the only photos I get usually...I'm lazy...need to do better when it comes to my family. And a photo of my dark hair...