Ok, so any of you who really know me, know that I am not the MOST diligent church goer in history. I try hard, and I make it to sacrament most ALL the time, but usually I give up and go home after that. It's not that I don't have a strong enough testimony. I have a great testimony. Just not so much about attending all my meetings. However, I've really been working on it this past year and trying to get past my boredom and find something for myself in each lesson being taught. I've even been trying to get more envolved in church activities and been more active in getting to know the ward members. I joined my ward Volley ball team. We are joined with another ward, sadly I'm the only one from my ward who has been attending, but oh well. Last week we were short a team member, so this week I invited my sister Shenla, who is definitely not active, and really struggles with the church, but I've been trying to introduce her to good people in the church and show her that they have fun too, and that they are nice good people to hang around. Well tonight I was really dissapointed in some of the people in the LDS church. The team we were playing against only had 5 people show up, and our team had 7 this week, which by the rules, meant that someone would have to sit out for each game. Since Shenla was the visitor, she felt like she needed to sit out and just watch. I didn't want her to do that because I wanted her to have fun and enjoy it. So I asked the other team if someone from our team could play on their team since they only had 5, so no one would have to sit out of the game. One of the ladies said, "no, this is an official game, ward members have to play with ward members". I was shocked and upset. After all, this is CHURCH BALL for heaven's sake! And Shenla was shocked and thought that Mormons are taught to reach out and embrace one another. Which is my understanding too. I know that not everyone in the church in like this, but honestly, when I went through my struggles with the church, the people were a big reason for that. Thank goodness I had a mutual leader who told me that church is for sinners, not saints. But it made me sad all the same. I go to church for me, and for my testimony and my relationship with God. But it sure would be nice if everyone would just have open arms for each other, and be a help meet for each other.
I'm sorry if it seems like a silly complaint, but it meant a lot to me. I really wanted my sister to feel welcome and see how much clean fun she could have, but her comment to me on our way out was, "When I'm at a party on a beach and people we don't know are playing volleyball, they just invite us to come play, they don't care how "official" they are playing a game. Everyone is welcome. I feel more welcome there than I did here." It was a good lesson to me to always stay on my toes with being kind and have open arms for anyone and everyone around me. You never know how your actions will effect how they see you or the religion you belong to.
Anyhow, just something to think about. Now I will get over it and forgive that team and move on. And you can bet if anyone ever asks to play volleyball on my team, I will embrace them with open arms and give them my spot if I need to!