Happy Birthday Dad!

It's my Dad's birthday today. I didn't remember until my mom called and said she was on her way to his Grave. I was in class. Feeling depressed about my stinkin Photo project that didn't work how I wanted it to. But it was finals today, so that's how it went. My last final is on Thursday thank goodness. I'm absolutely exhausted. I'm so tired and I haven't seen Aspen in 3 days because she's staying at my moms while we get through finals. Finals Sucks. I can't wait for the next two years to be done. I know it's important to get a degree...at least I know it is for me after my many prayers. But it would have been a lot easier to do BEFORE having a baby. I feel bad when I don't have time to spend with her.

I'm bummed.

Anyway, on to my Dad's birthday.

Happy Birthday Dad! I wonder what we'd be doing if you were still alive. I know you are meant to be where you are, but we miss you here. There are days I talk to you and miss you so much it brings a tear to my eye. There are days I forget to think about you because I'm so busy. There are days I can't get you off my mind. Days when Aspen asks for her Grandpa and it makes me feel sad about the best Grandpa she is missing out on. I have hard days when I want a fathers blessing, and no other dad will do for me. I have good days where I'm really happy and I wish you were here to share that with me. I have times when I want to go to lunch with you and just talk about the world and how life is only moments of happiness like we use to. Family get to gethers make me sad, and happy. I miss you at these...but I can feel you the most when we are all together. I miss singing with you, and I miss just hearing you sing. I miss your cowboy hat. I miss hearing you play your violin. I miss having a daddy around. Daddy's make the world a better, safer place for little girls.

Ill walk in the rain by your side,
Ill cling to the warmth your hand,
Ill do anything to help you understand
I love you more than anybody can.

And the wind will whisper your name to me
little birds will sing along in time,
leaves will bow down when you walk by
and morning bells will chime.

Ill be there when you're feelin down
to kiss away the tears that you cry,
Ill share with you all the happiness Ive found
a reflection of the love in your eyes.

And I'll sing you the songs of the rainbow,
Ill whisper of the joy that is mine
leaves will bow down when you walk by
and morning bells will chime.

Ill walk in the rain by your side,
Ill cling to the warmth your tiny hand,
Ill do anything to help you Understand
I love you more than anybody can.

And the wind will whisper you name to me
little birds will sing along in time,
leaves will bow down when you walk by
and morning bells will chime.