My little BIG 4 year old

I'm not a great mom that gets things posted when I should. Aspens birthday was on the 16th, but I have been so busy I haven't had the time to post. I have pictures that need pulled off my camera and posted, but I don't have the time today to do it. I did however write a letter for Aspen for her birthday, and thought I'd put it here for journals sake. She has had a week of birthday. So many birthday parties. She has had a blast. Her favorite was her pajama party with her friends. She had a blast, but she received some bath crayons from her friend Jack, and she decided she wanted her party to end so she could play. She said "You need to go home now because I need to take a bath and go to bed" ha ha. She knows how to get what she wants. She received a puzzle from her Grandma Call and as she was putting it together she said "This puzzle is amazing, I'm really good at it." the things she says makes me smile and laugh. She is so much fun and has so much personality. I will post her birthday pics later on this week.

Dear Aspen, (march 16th 2010)
You are four years old today and I can hardly believe time has gone by so quickly. Thinking back to being pregnant with you, you were such a comfort to me while your dad was away with the army. When I was lonely I would put my hands to my tummy and feel your comforting little kicks. I loved to feel you move because it comforted me to know you were so close. I would sing to you or talk to you all the time. You were my constand buddy and I loved you so much from the moment I knew you existed. The day you were born was very bitter sweet for me. I was so excited for you to finally be here and at the same time I missed your daddy and felt very alone when they didn't let you come back to my room with me for a whole week. The next two days were long and hard. I didn't get to see you or hold you because you were in the NICU and I had hemmoriaged during the C-section. They had me in bed for 2 days. I was so worried about you. When I finally got to come see you in teh NICU, it was like a breath of fresh air. I could finally breathe knowing - seeing that you were well, whole nad beautiful with all your 10 toes and fingers. It was hard for me to hold you when they finally let me, because you were hooked to all those wires, and I was in pain from my c-section. But it was the best paid I'd had in a long time, and the tears that I shed while holding you didn't stop when I got back to my room. I sat on the floor and cried. I was sad I couldn't bring you back to my room with me, I just wanted to be able to take you home and be with you, and I felt lonely without you and your dad being able to be with me. I wonder how you felt during this time. I had no doubt in my mind that your Father in Heaven held you close to him during that week.

We were so blessed during those first few months of your life. The Salisburys took us in and cared for us and made us a part of their family so we wouldn't be so lonely. It was a huge blessing for us.

It took us a coupld weeks to learn to work together, but we learned fast and you were such a sweet baby, so cuddly and so much fun. You filled a part of me - a part of my heart that was empty. You became everything to me in such a short amount of time. Your mom and dad love you so much. You are an important part of us - of our family. You are beautiful, inquisitive, smart, kind, extremely loving, fun, full of energy and life. You make us smile and laugh every day. Your excitement about life and learning is contagious. You make me a better person because I want so much to be a good example for you. I have many lessons to learn in life and a lot of growth to make, but I know you will be a part of that. you are so sweet Aspen, and I love you so much. Thank you for the sweet spirit you bring into our family. I love you! Happy birthday baby! My little BIG 4 year old!

Love Mom