Wahoooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I got the job! I didn't at all think I'd get it, but I did. They said I stood out above all the others they interviewed and they are excited to have me start on with them. It will be a big job, busy, but I will learn a LOT! I get to be on movie sets, photo shoot sets, touch up photos... I'm so excited. I haven't ever really done anything like this. So many changes this year. And it's so fun!
Ok now that I shared my excitement...guilt moment.
I feel guilty that I work everytime I see other mothers blogs who talk about how they sacrifice to be stay at home mom's like they feel they are supposed to be...like the church tells us we should be...like "good moms are". I KNOW that being a stay at home mom is harder than having a job you go to. I definetely know that. And it's not that I don't WANT to be with my little girl. I love her more than life. That's why I feel guilty that I enjoy having a job to do. The thing is...being a stay at home mom...well...with one child, and unable to get pregnant with another child...It depresses me more than anything to be a stay at home mom. As sad as that may be. As much as other moms might judge me. That's how I feel.
I've never had that confirmation that I should be a stay at home mom. Of course, maybe it's because I've always HAD to work...being a stay at home I've always had to run my own business at the same time...and I rarely have time with aspen because my business is so busy I work ALL day. This way, since I have to help bring in money until Ashton finishes school, I can go to work, go to school, then come home and actually spend time with Aspen instead of never being able to get away from my work like I am now. I think it will be better. I think we will find I have more time to spend with Aspen when I'm with her instead of having to work while I attempt spending time with her. But we will see...
Anyway, just unloading my guilty feelings. I'm sure I will always have some guilt. Everytime I read stay at home moms blogs, everytime I hear stay at home moms talk at church, I'm sure there will be many "I'm a horrible mom" moments. But I hope that I can have some "I finally get some real time with my daughter" moments too.
6 comments:
Woo hoo!!! Super big congrats on getting the job! You are going to do fabulous! I'm so happy and excited for you.
And you are a great mom, just doing what you have to do. Try not to let yourself feel bad about it, you're doing your best and that's what counts.
Shanda!!! That is so amazing!!!! It is going to be so much fun! I am so jealous! And Aspen will love you more for doing what you have a passion for!
Don't be too hard on yourself, girl. Remember the proclamation says, "... circumstances may necessitate individual adaptation." Only you know what's best for you and your family; all the "supposed to's" be damned.
I'm so happy you got the job. I think being a work-from-home mom is THE hardest thing ever. And to be a student on top of that? I can't even imagine it. I think this job will be fabulous for you and YOU will be fabulous for it! Congratulations!
I'm not the least bit surprised you got the job. I mean, really, who wouldn't want you? :)
Congratulations!
Congrats! My mom worked the majority of my life and I do not love her any less for it, nor do I feel short changed in any way. The time we spent together was quality time and now being a stay at home mom myself I realize that just because I am home doesn't mean I don't have to work at spending "quality time" with my kids. You are a wonderful mom!
CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!! Girl you so deserve this! You are going to be fabulous! I'm so excited for you! Please don't worry about what other mom's think/say. You know what's best for you and your family and that's all that matters! I think you are a great example to Aspen. She'll learn to go for whatever drives her and be passionate about what she does. I think it's great!
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