A Long Journal Post

Ok, so I don't get much time to write here anymore. And I haven't had time to do my Mission 24 photos either...which I'm sad about, but I am working 2 jobs, doing school, photography, dishes, housecleaning, friend time, and trying to squeeze in a little mom time and wife time in there too. :0)

I am likin my 2nd job actually. Guess some of us mom's are meant to work...I don't do as well being home. I'm not a nice mommy when I'm home all day. Maybe if I didn't have to be running an at home business too, and being mommy, I'd be better at it. My 2nd job is only 2 days a week at a middle school, helping out in a 6th grade class 4 hours a day, then straight from there, I head to school for the next 6 hours. Then home to dinner and snuggle time with Aspen and bed. This week though, I've been putting in full days everyday at the school since I'm on Spring Break. I go till 2pm instead. I have grown to love the children in the class. SOME of them anyway. Some I want to box their ears. There is one kid in the class, that refuses to do what he's supposed to, and anytime I try to help him or get him motivated, he yells at me not to look at his paper or talk to him. GRRR drives me nuts. Then There is another sweet boy, my favorite one...he's rather a big baby...complains about everything and thinks his life is horrible, but I like him, because he reminds me of my two of my nephews. Looks like one and has the attitude of the other. He will come in complaining and not working...he will just sit there and not do anything he's supposed to, but I am able to joke around with him and get him smiling, and then he starts working on his stuff...slowly but surely, and he talks to me. I just love that kid! The girls are funny and remind me of myself. I wish I'd been a better person at that age. I feel for so many of the kids...it's such a tender awkward age.

Then today I went for my first time snowmobiling. It was so much fun. I had a blast...though my whole body is exhausted now. We went up Providence Canyon and all around, and OH was it beautiful!!!!!!!!!! WOW! We came down the hill right as the sun was setting, and it was SOOOOO gorgeous I wish I'd had my camera on me! The mountains, the sun, the trees, the snow! It was ALL beautiFUL!

Aspen is growing, and she is so fun. I love her so much. She is the sweetest girl. She gives the best hugs and kisses. She is a great cuddler. She turns 3 on Monday, and I am so sad, and happy, that my baby is growing up so quickly. She wants a bike for her birthday, and a Fancy "Wancy" birthday party...don't know if that's going to happen this year. I am running out of time to plan things.

Ashton had his birthday on the 8th. Happy 26th Birthday honey!!! We didn't do a whole lot, but spending time together is always a treat. He's a fantastic father to Aspen, and he likes to spoil me. I appreciate all he does for our family! I Love you Ashton! Can't believe we've been married 4 years and together almost 6.

And lastly, I have felt quite frusterated lately, feeling like I'm not being able to accomplish all I want to as quickly as I want to. I get frusterated that I'm not as good at my photography as I want to be RIGHT NOW, and I get frusterated about my job, and about money, and about life in general sometimes. I've had to stop and remind myself that I'm not meant to be perfect right now. It's a work in progress, and it's ok if I take my time getting there...wherever there is. I rarely feel great about myself...but sometimes...when Aspen stops what she is doing when she's in the middle of something, and she says "I love you mommy" I feel like I'm doing SOMETHING right at least.